Well that was a long time coming for me. I was sitting in my chaise bawling like a 5 year old. Not even ashamed. This show just continues to surprise me and tear my insides to shreds. And finally!! Character growth! Brother connection that felt REAL. Felt familiar and organic and not contrived. This season the last few episodes is finally feeling like the show I've come to love so much. I'm almost forgetting that Sam didn't look for his brother. The one he's now [once again] convincing he has a reason to live. These speeches both made me cry rivers, especially Sam's back to Dean at the end: Dean: I need you to be safe, Sam. We’ve been down roads like this before, man…we both know where this ends. One of us dies or worse. Sam: So what? You just decided that’s you? Dean: I'm a grunt, Sam -- you're not, you've always been the brains of this operation. You told me yourself that you see a way out, you see a light at the end of this ugly ass tunnel ... I don't. I'll tell you what I do know; I'm gonna die with a gun in my hand, that's what I have waiting for me, that's all I have waiting for me. I want you to get out, I want you to have a life, become a Man of Letters, whatever. You with a wife and kids and grandkids, living 'til you're fat and bald and chugging viagra ... that is my perfect ending, and it's the only one that I'm gonna get. So I’m going to do these trials, and I’m going to do them alone. End of story. Sam: It’s a suicide mission for you. I want to slam Hell shut, too, but I wanna survive it, I want to live, and so should you. You have friends up here, family ... hell, you've even got your own room now. You're right, okay? I see light at the end of this tunnel and I'm sorry you don't, but it's there, and if you come with me, I can take you to it. Dean: Sam, be smart. Sam: I am smart, and so are you. You're not a grunt, Dean, you're a genius -- when it comes to lore ... you're the best damn hunter I've ever seen, better than me, better than dad. I believe in you, Dean, so please, please, believe in me too. Just kill me now. Seriously. There is no show I've ever watched in my entire life that had the ability to make me cry like a child. I should be embarrassed by that but I don't even care. That's how great I think this show is. I am going to be lost when it ends. I am more attached to these fictional character than I am to people I know in real life. Sad but true. Okay so other thoughts. The hellhounds were really cool. I was impressed by the graphics of the show. I loved how they showed Sam literally bathing in its blood as he sliced it open above him. Very cool. Dean has his own room!! And a picture of his mom. Gah. Sam smiling at it was sweet. And memory foam! It remembers him! Oh Dean. And him cooking for Sam. Cripes these two. (when he said he didn't realize Dean knew what a kitchen was, all I could think about was Dean in Season 6. The opening of the premier where he's cooking for Lisa and Ben ) And can I say how happy I am that Sam finally got to save his brother from the Hellhound that he couldn't do at the end of Season 3. Imagine how satisfying that had to be for him. It sure was for me! I really like that Sam is the one doing the trials. I just assumed it would be Dean. Sam needs a win. He needs to be the hero of the season FOR ONCE. Thank you writers for seeing that and acting on it. I'm tired of Sam being the kicked dog, the one always struggling with his dark side. Gosh this is just such a nice surprise for me, you don't even know. I could go on but I'll give you guys a chance for input before I add more.